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October 2, 2015 at 3:54 pm #463504
I have been covered by entire loneliness for weeks now…i can’t sleep and can’t even swallow any food. Crying day and night. I don’t know why this guy break up with me and go back to his ex..he denied many times about seeing her until I saw them together holding hands. It was the start of everything, the most painful, terrible feeling I have ever been in my life..my heart almost stopped and hurt as hell. This is something I couldn’t take anymore. I want to stop breathing and not to wake up anymore.October 2, 2015 at 3:56 pm #463507
SORROW: CALL YOUR LOCAL SUICIDE PREVENTION HOTLINE THIS MINUTE. PLEASE. YOU DONT’ WANT TO DO THIS. IF YOU TRY IT AND YOU FAIL YOU COULD SEVERELY INJURE YOURSELF. I KNOW WHAT IT’S LIKE TO BE LOW, I’VE STRUGGLED WITH DEPRESSION AND SUICIDAL THOUGHTS MOST OF THIS YEAR. I GOT PAST IT AND I’M SO HAPPY TO BE ALIVE. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PICK UP YOUR PHONE NOW WHEREVER YOU ARE AND DIAL. YOU ARE LOVED. THERE IS A REASON FOR YOU TO BE HERE EVEN IF IT DOESN’T FEEL LIKE IT. TAKING YOUR LIFE WON’T TAKE AWAY THE PAIN. YOU JUST WANT OUT OF THE PAIN, NOT TO DIE, THERE ARE OTHER WAYS TO DEAL WITH THE PAIN!!!!!October 2, 2015 at 3:57 pm #463508
I do not know where you are. Please seek help now. No one is worth your life.October 2, 2015 at 4:00 pm #463510
I am so rarely here and I just got on here 5 minutes ago for the heck of it… I’m glad I saw your post. We are all behind you and we don’t have to know you to send you love and light. Please answer back and tell us you called someone local for help.October 2, 2015 at 4:03 pm #463513
I don’t know what to do and what I feel now is a terrible pain. I don’t even have anybody to talk to tell everything. I never go to work since then because we work on same building.seeing them together is like killing myself. I’m tiredOctober 2, 2015 at 4:07 pm #463518
I know it hurts. I’m sorry. But your life and your value do not hinge on one man.
I’m in England and we have the Samaritans, a 24/7 hotline anyone can call to talk confidentially about anything. If you are in the US you will have something similar – would you please Google that and call someone? We cannot help you much here. Please sweetheart. Do not harm yourself. There’s another life on the other side of this relationship, I promise.October 2, 2015 at 4:10 pm #463520
It is so not worth killing yourself. My ex left me a few months back and I found out through Facebook. I know what you are going through….don’t do it!!October 2, 2015 at 4:11 pm #463522
Ms Sorrow – this is terrible, what you are going through right now is terrible. But how can you betray yourself like this? The dear sweet YOU..??? throw away your life because ONE person did not love you back? You are doing the same thing he did to you – only to YOURSELF.
The pain will be there for a long time, it is very very hard to bounce back from what you’ve experienced, but you need to look at it for what it is. This is ONE guy who did not feel for you the same way you felt for him. Your ego is hurt very badly. That is why you are in such pain. But your ego will recover, with time you will meet new love, and you will be able to recognize the right guy. It is most likely that you mistook this guy for the right one.
Do not confuse pain with love. Love is more quiet. You need to heal your ego, and this can be done through the realization that ONE person not being into us is ok. He was a jerk for not telling you the truth. The truth would have stung like crazy but your feelings would have been spared, you would not have felt so betrayed and so crushed.
It will be a time when you will not love someone back, then you will understand that it is only ONE time.
Start reading about how to recover and how to move on. Come to this forum and read as many threads as you can, you will probably see yourself in some of them.
Pull yourself together girl. It hurts like hell, but you owe it to yourself to get through it. Stop being a sissy, you are not the first one being betrayed.October 2, 2015 at 4:14 pm #463525
Maria, for God’s sake, she’s posting about ending her life. Don’t tell her to pull herself together and stop being a sissy at a time like this. The rest of your post was excellent. Please be more mindful about how you talk to someone at a time like this.October 2, 2015 at 4:17 pm #463526
Oh my God, girl go to a hospital right, PLEASE GET HELP! Trust me I have been there, although I never took active steps, I have had several cases in my life when I really did not want to continue and cried for days and suffered for many months, they can help you! Steph is right no one is worth this, not you dying over them, especially not this psycho, heartless, cruel animal , your ex.
Many times I could not eat. I have always had people to talk to but sometimes you feel too tired. That is the worst, medical help will help you!
Ok I tell you here more in detail a couple of my stories:
When my ex fiancee dumped me pretty much on the streets after my leaving my job and giving up everything for our big love and he cheated on me with his ex and got back together with her for fear of commitment after he had said he wanted a family too, I wanted to end my life I felt. He did this to me when I was pregnant and I miscarried that same day. I asked to be taken to the hospital and my family helped. I took medication and drank and I felt like cutting myself even if not to die but instead asked that they take me in. I had to anyhow as I had a miscarriage.
For days I cried nonstop, I tore out all my eyelashes and looked out the hospital window like I was in a ward, felt like I was a prisoner of his life, the feeling is indescribable. This monster came the next day even though everyone asked him not to if he only wants to torture me. He came and promised me everything and cried and poof he was gone and never talked to me again unless to scream at me to get my shit out of his house.
I was in the hospital for two months because I was afraid to be alone, it was good to get help and have understanding people and just people around me, I feared going back to my apartment which was hard when I did.
You have to have a reason to live, find one! To me it was my new career, my studies even though I mostly still did not feel like living, no one could make the pain go away, no one. It tooks many months, maybe even a couple of years to fully recover and I was dating like crazy to numb the pain and fell into the traps of a true psycho.
This year he is gone from my life too and I am ready to start a new life though broke in every sense but I am fighting and alive.
You may need medication to help you, in fact I am sure you do at the moment, it will help you realize that he is not worth your dying at all.
Please please I beg you to go to the hospital. Let us know ok? We are with you and here for you and there are people that love you!October 2, 2015 at 4:18 pm #463527
This is a U.S. National suicide hotline number: 800-273-8255
Please, please don’t give up. As much as it is hard to believe right now, this pain won’t persist and life DOES get better…don’t let a reaction to someone else’s actions rob you of your life and take you away from the people who care about you. Because losing someone in this way is unbearable.October 2, 2015 at 4:21 pm #463531
Stefanie, I am saying what I believe IS GOING TO HELP HER. I’ve been in such a state myself. If you have something else to say that you think will help, do so.October 2, 2015 at 4:22 pm #463532
Thanks for sharing your story Southern B and Michele so grateful you came up with a phone number for our girl. Hang on Sorrow, you have the power to move on from this and feel good again.October 2, 2015 at 4:23 pm #463533
Maria: calling someone you don’t know a sissy because they are suicidal is not helpful by a long shot. I’ve reported to the admin.
I won’t address you further.October 2, 2015 at 4:26 pm #463535
Ms. Sorrow – what is your phone number?October 2, 2015 at 4:27 pm #463536
Can you please reply to these comments so that we know you are reading them?October 2, 2015 at 4:27 pm #463537
You are here on this Earth for a reason. Your life is so precious, don’t let one guy make you want to end it. Breakups are hard, you don’t just hurt emotionally, you hurt physically too. You feel like the pain is unbearable, but you will get through it and it will make you a stronger person. One day you are going to wake up with the love of your life next to you and all of this pain and heartache will be a distant memory. Don’t give up your bright future because of how you feel today. It will get better, you will move forward. One day you will get the gift of a man’s love and devotion and it will be so amazing you will be glad you are there to receive it.
Please call a suicide hotline in your area. If you want to tell us where you are we can look up the information for you.October 2, 2015 at 4:29 pm #463540
Putting any personal information on the threads here will make it findable on Google search. It’s anonymous here for good reasons.
Sorrow, please tell us you have called someone – used the number Michele gave or called someone locally?? We are all worried for you.October 2, 2015 at 4:37 pm #463543
I am still here trying to read your every words. I want to tell you more but my hands are shakingOctober 2, 2015 at 4:41 pm #463546
Ms Sorrow – if oyu type your phone number with a lot of spaces in between in each digit, it won’t be recognizable on search engines.
You owe it to yourself to stay strong right now. We are here with you, so stay with us. We will walk you through. Many of us been in a similar state and we recovered and found joy later onOctober 2, 2015 at 4:42 pm #463547
If you don’t want to give out your number, please type up how you met with his person. Were there any red flags that you see now and you overlooked then?October 2, 2015 at 4:49 pm #463550
Am I stupid to feel this way? I’m beautiful but she is attractive. I belong to a lower staff in the department while she got the best career so he chooses her without considering what I gave, I give everything each day of my life to make him happy with me but all was taken for grantedOctober 2, 2015 at 4:51 pm #463551
Glad you are hanging in with us!!! Don’t give up. If you have complete strangers pulling for you this hard, imagine what those close to you would want for you. :) Although it’s difficult to think past the pain you are in right now try to remember, make a list of what keeps you here, what you hope to have in the future, which friends and family members are important to you, list ways other people show they care for you. Put him out of your mind, he doesn’t get to take up any space in there right now. Crowd him out with the other good things in your life.October 2, 2015 at 4:51 pm #463552
Sorrow you need professional help now, to help you through this unbearable pain. It is not within and under your control now. You will be able to work through it later but first you need someone to really help you. Can you call anyone, a friend a family member to take you to the hospital please? I beg you this is really important.
Although I have been through a lot I never tried to commit suicide but my sister did. You are worth a lot more than this man. I know it is hard to think this way now but you are loved, we all are here to pull for you and to get you through this.
Now you cannot talk, you are crying non-stop and cannot handle the pain as it has taken over you, you need a way in the hospital where they will calm you down enough so you can start thinking and talking about it.
Let us know please, have you called anyone? Please please do.October 2, 2015 at 4:54 pm #463558
I know you cannot put him out of your mind now, this is impossible.
Believe me something is wrong with him and not you! I was way better looking than the person my ex left me for and he later crowded my FB with photos of them out of revenge, like he was the one hurt. It is about them being narcists, psychopaths.
Another website that is really helpful is psychopath free for later reading.
For now you really really need help, please do what we have told you, if you do not want to give us your number at least call the hotline, you are worth it, we are all telling you that!
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