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messifan10
I suffer from BPD and it’s very bad throughout the relationship I was abusive, I scratched him once and threw things 4 times. Yet he still gave me chances after chances. We recently were talking again and meeting for sex, until this past weekend he opened the door for me with a smile on his face and I didn’t even say hi to me. He got very very angry and grabbed me roughly kicking me out of the house, I tried to call him after I left and he told me to come back to the house and give him oral sex. Which I did and then things were mad again he admitted that he hates me deeply and I am disgusting and he is in the process of pressing charges against me. I am on medication and it was helping me before I met him I forgot to take them and that really affected my mood tbh. He threw my phone and almost broke my screen and called me a B and told me to die after I drove off. I texted him and apologized and he said he will block me and I continue to text him and he hasn’t blocked me but I am losing my mind. I have a lot of free time now, since finals are over my last final is tomorrow. I cried today taking my final exam thinking of him. I texted him today asking for forgiveness he ignored me. I obviously am not ok mentally I really love this man and he hates me.
AngieBaby
I’m sorry if this is harsh – you need to get your BPD under control before you get physically or emotionally involved with someone and you need to STAY on your meds. You’re harming him and you’re harming yourself by continuing this so-called relationship.
I once got involved with someone I found out had BPD after we started dating and it was such a scary rollercoaster ride I had to break it off and when he wouldn’t stop contacting me, I actually had to file a police report of harassment after warning him repeatedly he was leaving me no choice. I found out this wasn’t the first time he’s been reported to the police by a woman he wouldn’t leave alone and one of the officers told me confidentially he believes this man is going to wind up getting arrested and charged because this is such a pattern of behavior for him. He presented as normal for the first two months and then turned crazy. I can attest to the fact that if you stay around crazy people they drag you down.
If you keep this up, you’re cruising for trouble with the law. And a lifetime of living in hell. It’s really unfair to drag someone else into your mess.
Stop contacting this man, PLEASE get back on your meds and see your therapist and doctors on a regular basis. No one can help you if you won’t take the responsibility for helping yourself. While BPD is notoriously difficult to treat, if you decide you’re going to get better, you can and you will.
tammy
please get medical help. Focus on improving your health. You are in no condition to handle relationships presently. Agree with Angie. You do not want to be the cause of any untoward incident. please let this guy go. you need to get things in order in your life before you get involved with anyone else.
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