Rekindled after 15 years-married-one recently single-crushed

We lived together for a few years. We were in our mid 20’s. I ended up wanting to see what else was out there. I was 25. I ended up cheating. Broke both of us. 15 years later he has been married with children. He’s an only child. I was just leaving a toxic year long relationship.

I always thought about him over the years. Then one day this past summer the night before I was actually flying out to Arizona to meet my parents, they have a place out there, that is, where are used to live with this man, he ended up reaching out to me on Facebook. He told me he was going through a divorce. But they still lived together, coparenting and financial hardship. He had ended up spending all of his parents inheritance foolishly his parents passed away a few years prior he was the nicest guy ever dated. I soon learned that he had been cheating on his wife, the entire time they were married, even getting another woman pregnant that woman had a miscarriage. His wife never learned about it. We decided to meet up and we connected. I cannot commit to him, however, because he was still married and living with the wife he finally started the paperwork and has been legally divorced since June they still coparent, and are stuck in the home that they can’t get sold.

We had an argument on a last resort to visit him. I would go see him once a month.. I was feeling concerns at the time I was fine with him give me a promise for him while he’s living with her. She sounds like she’s actually a pretty good person.

He was sudden switchgears and decided that to do a conflict we had visited. He said he no longer loved me. Says nothing to do with his wife. But this was on distance relationship.

Devastated he told me he will always love me. The first thing you said to me was we don’t have sex bring his children’s wait. This is our time and learn to her. What makes it that he wouldn’t do that to me