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Khadija.
Ella
That’s really it. My ex texted me yesterday early in the day. It was very easy to blow him off in sobriety. Then I went out to dinner and for drinks with friends and we were still texting throughout the day here and there (just about our respective plans and whatnot.) Drinks happened and long story short I woke up next to him in my bed this morning. He’s a gaslighter. He’s an insanely jealous person. He gave me crumbs our entire relationship until I finally stood up for myself and ended it. I don’t even LIKE him in sobriety let alone want to be with him. And to make matters worse I recently met someone who I am interested in and things have been very healthy so far. I straight up hate myself today. I can’t believe I rung in 2025 that way. I’m disgusted with myself.
Raven
BLOCK. HIM.
Ella
I had him blocked. And then a few weeks ago I had a weak moment and bc I still had his number – in mg blocked list – I unblocked and texted him. So to avoid that in the future, I deleted his contact info, every text message, all of it. I don’t know his number by heart so that kept me from reaching out. And then truly helped me get over it. I didn’t respond to texts from him for a few weeks and would just permanently delete when he’d reach out. I caved in NYE !, his text was nice/well wishes. Anyway, I feel much better today and have accepted that it was a mistake and I can’t take it back so I’m just going to move on from it.
Raven
@Ella, Are you our ‘regular’ Ella or a new Ella?
Ella
This is my first time posting here
Tammy
You cant change whats already done. And no point hating urself or regretting things that cant be undone. So take this as a lesson, a learning curve, accept that humans make mistakes and its ok, forgive urslf and move on. Do not entertain his msgs calls or him ever again. Block and delete. In case he msgs from anthr number, block again. You will probably reach a point in life where u wldnt hv to block or delete. U will learn to just ignore. Till u reach that stage, its best to nip it in the bud. All the best.
Khadija
I’ve been in your shoes. Block him and remmber how this feels so you don’t do it again.
If you are having trouble moving on or practicing boundaries, go seek some therapy.
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