Just want someone to love

I feel very defeated. I’m 29. Have just no luck with men.

I’ve met men who tell me I’m perfect. I’m classy, cute, funny, honest, smart and they love it. They say so. Been told I’m the perfect girlfriend. I think of them, cook dinners, and do sweet things for them.

But they have actually told me I’m not what they are looking for at that time. I had a guy once tell me I’m the type of girl he saw himself marrying, but he just wasn’t in that phase of his life, looking for wife material yet. I’m just being myself. Its my personality to be caring. Not trying to rush marriage. I have friends who openly push an engagement. I’m not like that. I’m not in a rush for a wedding, I just want to meet someone to enjoy life with together. If it leads to marriage, then it will happen in time.

Other guys are too afraid to hurt me and they ghost me. Recently, I even had one guy get me to break it off with him. It was very obvious. I think he didn’t want the guilt.

I’m not even trying to date anymore because I’m feeling so torn down by these failures over and over. I almost anticipate it falling a part at this point.

I feel like maybe I am attracting the wrong people, even had a married guy want to take me out recently. I said no. He said his wife was fine with it. I’m not.

How are other woman finding really good, single, available, stable men?

I have a fantastic job, cute look, financially stable, family oriented.

All good things I think.

Family, friends, co workers tell me guys should be fawning at my feet, because I’m a mature, cute girl. Well, where are they?

All my friends are married and busy with that so I find myself, working, going home and being by myself day after day and a lot of weekends. I’m not a person who enjoys or feels comfortable doing things by myself for boredom alone and safety concerns.

I haven’t been dating. I feel so down on myself that no man will like me. I even told one guy who asked me out recently that he wouldn’t like me. He was a bit surprised by my response.

I turned him down. I know how it goes. You’re perfect, then bam, break up fade away or its me, not you. Nothing goes past six months.

I feel like a loser. Like maybe its me. Though others tell me that I’m a great woman so thats not true.

I don’t want to settle either. I won’t. Some of my friends are married to immature guys. I hate immaturity.

I’ve started getting depressed, seeing a counselor. But I don’t feel any better about this situation in my life. I want to meet a man who is my best friend also with that physical spark. Feel like its impossible. I don’t know what else to do. I have a huge heart. So much love I want to share. My dad tells me all the time how I can only be described in one word…sweet. And a guy would be lucky to have someone sweet like me. I am sweet, caring, loving. I think I dress nice and have a beautiful face. I’m curvy, but not obese or anything. I keep trying to find out what keeps going wrong, but I can’t find it.

I have so much love to give a man and I want to share a life with someone and not be so alone.

Any help for me?