I am scared of having feelings for him

I have started dating someone I went to college with. We re-connected on a dating app and initially I had no preconceptions about the date, I guess I felt quite indifferent. I just thought it would be nice to meet up again. I remembered his humour from college and I guess that attracted me to the idea of meeting up.

We have been dating for about 2 months now, and at first I was quite indifferent, but something made me want to see him again and again. He is so kind to me. We always have a great time together and everything just feels so easy.

Now I am starting to catch feelings for him, but it scares me. I have had really bad experiences in relationships in the past with my ex boyfriends disappearing without warning, switching their feelings off like a tap and being extremely dishonest with quite major things.

I know I should be enjoying these feelings during these new days of dating each other, but I am petrified of letting my feelings be known. I don’t want to come across as cold, but I have it so drilled into me that if I show any emotion, he will not want to see me any more .

Please does anyone have advice. As soon as these feelings flare up, I just want to run, even thought I know I am starting to really like him.