I’m not sure why I’m here writing this. All I know is that I’ve never dealt with heartbreak like this and I don’t know what to do. I can’t be with the guy I love. I don’t want to get into the details because there’s no point and it would take me all night. All you need to know is that I am utterly and completely in love with him. But there are several factors that add up to us not being together in the end. I don’t know what to do. I try to distract myself with hanging out with my friends, exercising, focusing on better myself in every which way possible but at the end of the day when I’m lying in bed all alone, all I’m left to wonder is how much life could be better if we could just be together. I don’t know what to do. I can’t keep feeling like this. It’s been a long time now.